Autumn Elegy
The snow
has come. The swirling flakes
self-immolate
on hot maple
grove, white-fringe the aging auburn
oaks,
a coin drop from
winter into the glacial lake.
(Cold comes so
early here -- September frost invades
the harvesting
and gives the roses heart attacks.)
The boreal wind
has taken up residence,
has seized the
calendar in icy clench. The hat
I haven't seen
since spring comes down -- I undertake
a day-long
search for hibernating gloves and boots.
My scarf has
stolen off -- I know not where. The
mouse,
the gray one my
cat keeps catching and letting go,
darts to and fro
on the kitchen floor -- does he know
the hard light's
reckoning? Does bone-deep chill at dawn
embolden him
this once for daylight foraging?
(We have an
arrangement on the winter's supplies:
he comes out at
night and he and I know full well
that whatever is
not locked is not wanted, fair game
for a gray
mouse.) He nudges a cast-off crust,
noses for
crumbs, his whiskers italicizing
the advent of
hunger, his tail a question mark
interrogating me
about the wayward sun.
Alone in frost,
I take my place at the lake,
my solitude
complete, my steps the first to break
the pathway to
the pebbled shore. I stand alone,
until the rabbit
peers out from the graveyard grass --
twice now he's
been there among the mummied lilies,
his eye, as
mine, upon the never placid waves.
The summer boats
are gone. White ducks that waded here
are huddled now
beneath the bridge, far downstream.
The other birds
have packed their bags -- they have left
us
their broken
shells, their desolated nests, their
songs
a carbon copy of
a twice-repeated tale.
Lord Lepus, what
do you know of impending ice?
Do you suspect
the cirrus-borne snow's arrival?
Will you find
greens enough beneath the snow bank?
We turn our
mutual ways -- you to your warren
amid the husks
and roots and toppled gravestones --
I must go to
book and breakfast. I leave the trees,
fond frame of my
eye's delight, putting behind me
the cup of lake
that always welcomes each sunrise.
Soon now its eye
will be blinded, a cataract
reflecting
sheet-white nothingness. I walk through
town,
across the
college grounds where last night's wind's
caprice
made here a
pristine bed of snow -- yet over there
an untouched
riot of maple on still green lawn.
The carillon
tolls the beginning of the day;
the students
hurry, dumbfounded at virgin snow.
I am the only
one to linger here. I stand
upon a carpet of
red, soft, ancient leaves: some,
some are green
yet, they are still proud,
they are fallen
on the wings of their youth
and they are
going to pick up anytime now
and fly back --
I am mourning
for them,
for them, for
you, for my brothers who have
fallen.
--October 31,
1968, Edinboro, Pennsylvania, revised
1995, 1996
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